when i will stop questioning
and serenely accept
that my imperfection is perfectly your plan
that my misfortunes are designed just so
as preludes to a grand achievement somewhere somehow
that your non answer is because you want me to learn about discovery
that the evil i see is part of a grander scheme
that a baby must die of hunger
that people crush each other for what they call devotion
poverty, corruption, power play, deceit, dark negative forces
must be there as hidden blessings to someone somewhere somehow
and that i should stop worrying
about what i do, where i go, what i achieve
and that i should only love and love and love despite everything
because when i love passionately i will only have time for love
and i will spend my energy only to love
and i will have nothing left to hate not even a nanosecond
there will come a day
when i no longer feel dirtier than sin
and that i will love you so severely
with the kind of love like that of mary magadalene's
